LUNCHBOX STORIES
by john rustywire
Remembering Things that Were
I stood with my grandson, I am an old man and we came to my spot
on this mountain top. I have been here many times and with me, all those
that have come before have taken a little of their vision and shared it
with me.
I can see far and it pretty, clear across the valley and all the
places
there. My great grandson has helped me to this spot. I can
not
remember his name, but he looks a little like me when I was his
age.
His body is young and strong. He helped to stand tall and erect.
I told
him the story of his fathers and how we had survived to bring him
life.
His eyes are bright, wide and innocent. He listens patiently to
the
rambling talk of an old man.
Look over there, that is the place I have spoken about, it is a spring.
There you will find fresh cold water. When you are thirsty you can
take a drink and wash yourself on a hot day. You can lie down next to it
and enjoy the day.
He looked at me and said, I can't see it. I can not see so clearly,
but
I know it is there. I tell him how it sits against the mountain,
how
the earth is cracked there and a small stream flows into a pool,
somehow made through time. My vision is not that good. I tell him
how it has always looked.
There is nothing there, Shi Che' (honored grandfather)
There is only a road and an oil well.
Oh, yes, I remember. The tribe was having a hard time and so the
need for money was great, those were tough times. Somone needed the
water to put back into the earth to bring up oil way down there, below.
My spring is no more. Where have we gone with these things. My great grandson,
I am sorry it is not here for you. I didnot take care of it like I should
have and now it is gone. I can't remember all that was here, but
yet some of these things are gone.
Remember there was a time when it was there and that it refreshed
us
so. I wish I could give you a drink. How is it so that this water
is
gone forever. Who can take away water, but yet it is so. The grass
is
gone and so is the quiet spot. I stand here, and those behind
me in
the shadows, my fathers weep and so I find myself standing with
tears
streaming down my cheeks. I feel old and tired and my soul hungers
for what was once ours. My heart cries our a mourning song for the morning
dove, the plants, the mountain tobacco and the quiet times that are no
more....
rustywire
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